Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Mekredi


Photo: Troy Livesay

I've been trying to write twice a day. It is as much for me as it is for you. I feel like I need to get some of the thoughts out for personal therapy reasons - but also because so much is happening in one day and our short-term memories seem fried - I know if I don't write a few things I won't remember a lot of this a few years from now.

Today was really busy. I think we all thought things would begin to slow down by now.

We were wrong.

There were tons of first time patients. People that have been waiting and suffering for 15 days. Add those new people to the load of follow up dressing changes, it made for a crazy day. Most of the patients we've been seeing for a week already are starting to show great signs of healing. There are a few really tough cases that have had set-backs. One little guy had to have his ear cut open to have many maggots removed. There are a few kids with 3rd degree burns from boiling food or water falling on them when the earth shook. One boy has burns over half his face. A little girl has them all over one thigh and on her torso. Another boy named Chedner has a wide open cut that must heal that way because too many days passed to pull it together. We have not kept stats but we think the Docs and nurses have been seeing about 50 - 60% children. Today at one point we had three pregnant ladies in all at once -- and all three had broken bones.

Prior to the earthquake we worked weekly with the same 50 women. We know them well and developed relationships with them in our Prenatal and Early Childhood Development Classes. The majority of the ladies have not stopped in - just a handful have. We're hoping these ladies we've come to love are alive and hanging in there. Two of them stopped in today and it made us realize how much we miss our regular gig seeing them and spending quality time together. We wonder when we'll be able to go back to our Tuesday and Thursday class schedule. We wonder if they are okay.

We transported three women to the Miami Field Hospital. I got to quickly peek in on Jean. He looks like a new kid. It is amazing what a little hydration and rest and medicine will do for a boy. Tomorrow he will be discharged from U.Miami and will likely stay with us for a few days longer. We gave him some clothes and a toy and he was totally beaming - he is a sweet little boy.

We have a big group of Docs going home tomorrow. We had some trouble getting the next set of Doctors to Florida in time for tomorrow's flight. We're going to be very short staffed for a few days, prayers for those of us non-medical people to step it up and be helpful - are needed. A lot of us are also feeling a slump in our energy and patience levels and need to pep up and get over that right now!



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I don't think we'll ever forget the way the earthquake felt, but I have not taken the time to write about our personal experience in detail ... On that Tuesday we had finished up women's program around 3:30 and a few of us ran to the store to grab a few groceries. I dropped friends off to their house and headed home. Troy and I were making dinner for two visiting adoptive moms. We were working together on enchiladas while Lydia sat on the kitchen counter and Hope played quietly in her room upstairs. Phoebe was just hanging out in the kitchen, Paige was helping put things away from bags we were unpacking. The boys were over with Vivien watching a movie at the guesthouse.

I told Troy I would be right back and ran up the stairs with a handful of stuff. Paige followed with more things to be put away. I walked by my computer and hit send and receive. The first thing that registered in my brain/body was the crashing sounds around the house. Before I could tell the ground was moving I heard things falling everywhere. It started with one crash then there was crashing coming from every direction. I remember thinking, "Who is bombing us?" At that time I did not know Hope was in her room. I told Paige to come and we ran down the steps while they moved from underneath our feet. We got to the kitchen to see Troy coming toward us and telling us to get out. (He forgot Lydie on the counter.) I pointed to Lydia bouncing around the counter while glass was crashing to the ground from the kitchen cabinets. I grabbed Lydie and then Phoebe and sat down in the entry way to cover our heads. We never left the house until it was over. I don't think I knew yet that it was an earthquake. As I sat down Hope came screaming down the steps. The house was moving enough that it tossed you side to side as you walked. She had been coming through her room and the upstairs at the time the bookshelves were falling forward. She was hysterical. I looked out the front door to see the water in the pool flying about four feet into the air and across the driveway. Jeronne stood gripping the kitchen table screaming at the top of her lungs for Jesus to save us. I kept asking Jeronne to let go of the table and come sit by us. She ignored me and kept screaming. We sat another ten seconds or so before that first earthquake ended. In total we think it lasted about 40 seconds. As soon as we pulled ourselves together I told Troy to go check the guesthouse and the people in it. In the time he was gone the first aftershock happened. Our littlest girls gripped us with all their might. I ran inside to grab a phone and called my Dad. It was still so early that I don't know if I even made sense when I called him. After about 3o minutes I quickly got on line and posted. Most of my family told me they had not heard it on the news at the time they saw the blog post.

We spent a lot of the next 48 hours pacing, praying, wondering, and running in and out of our house with each strong aftershock. There was an eerie quiet in our neighborhood. It was scary. We decided to send our kids out on Thursday night. The Embassy told us they would go to the D.R. and then be able to book commercial flights to the USA. We asked the two adoptive moms to look after them. As it turned out we put them into Embassy Suburbans at about midnight without knowing where the plane would take them. No one would tell us that. After I put them in the truck I went back out to the area we had been resting in the grass and cried like a baby for an hour. Later in the night I got in a fight with a spoiled girl freaking out on the Embassy employees about not being able to bring her big suitcase. I watched CNN live coverage of Haiti while lying on the Embassy floor. I could not believe any of it was real. I went back outside and made a bed in the grass. When I woke up Troy was yelling at me across the courtyard from the front gate. I got up to start moving toward him. He was telling me the kids had made it to New Jersey and were safe. I dropped to my knees and sat there sobbing and thanking God.

In the almost two weeks that have passed since we sent them out, I have been struck again and again with the reality of how easy we have it. I watch these moms and dads come into the clinic with hurt kids and I think about the total and complete relief I felt when I knew my kids were in a safe place ... These parents don't get the option to put their kids on a flight out of this messy and difficult situation. They don't get to choose the best Doctor or a safe and easy place. They don't get to wake up tomorrow and learn their children are fine, cared for, fed, and resting in the arms of loved ones abroad. I wish they did.


tara

40 comments:

Sonya said...

God bless you for all that you are doing. Reading your words...it's just powerful. Continuing to pray for you all, for Haiti and for God's grace to reign.

Sailor and Co said...

you will not be forgotten, nor will the Haitian people...not by me anyway !!!!!!!

Ashley said...

Amazing story. When this is all over, you need to write a book.

everydaymiracle.wordpress.com said...

Sweet Tara, I am praying for you.

Sherri

Dea said...

Tara we don't know you but we love you--and Troy and everyone else you write about. Thank you for doing what we can't. God is with you and we are still praying that He will show up in big and little ways everyday for you and for every hurting life in Haiti. Dea and Jeff

Pat M. said...

I thought I was over crying about this... You made me realize I probably never will be. I think that is a good thing.

Melanie said...

Hi Tara - My name is Melanie, I am friends with Joanna Theile from Minnesota. I was just in Haiti for the second time (with Joanna) in November. I have been reading your blog since November and I just wanted to thank you for your blog posts, especially post earthquake, I find them so healing to me as the media starts to cover Haiti less and less and I just want to know more and more about what is going on. So thank you for your blog. You and your family are in my families prayers all the time. And thank you for taking such good care of our Joanna : )

Becky said...

I look forward to your posts. Thank you for sharing your experiences. Every time I read I want to get on a plane to help you all. God bless you and your team and what you are doing. Since I can't be there to help I am lifting you all up in prayer. The miracles that God is working through your clinic are absolutely amazing. I thank God for all of you! Hang in there.

Miss Mary said...

You and your family are amazing to me. In fact, all of the people, the patients, the Haitians you write about--just a true miracle. Praying praying praying, and sending love to you all. Being able to read your accounts of what is going on is so incredibly informative and gives all of us who just have the news stations as our main source of info a new perspective--a very personal and human perspective. May God continue to hold you in His hand, He will see you through.

Kristie said...

Thank you so much for your posts and for being Jesus' hands and heart to His people. I pray for strength, peace and grace for you and your team. You are not alone. You will not be forgotten. I keep thinking of John 10:10. The enemy may have brought destruction, but God has come to give life and life to the fullest.

kidsrthefuture said...

Lord, I pray that you Place your healing righteous hands on the Livesay family, their guests,and the Haitian people. Lord, bring them comfort, energy, and clear minds and open hearts. For through them Lord your glory will reign and shine.

Thank you for what you are doing. I am moved and hunger for the words you write. My family continues to lift you in prayer and will continue for as long as you need it!! Press on tomorrow is a new day that will be exhausting, question, and wonder but God is with you. He will lift you up, he will sustain you, he will comfort you.

MamaPoRuski said...

Thanks for continuing to blog. I search daily for updates, found you off another friends blog. May God continue to bless you, give you strength and peace.

terri said...

how glad i am that your house withstood the quake and your family is safe. how terrifying this must have been for all of you.

how proud i am to know you and call you my friend.

Laurel said...

How glad I am that you are writing ... for you ... and for us. We need to hear the stories ... we need to hear your thoughts and feelings ... we need to know how to pray.

Keep writing ...

mama of 13

Elizabeth said...

I think about you all and everyone around you throughout my day. I keep praying for extraordinary strength and patience. You must be so tired. Hang in there. We'll keep praying.

Sandra said...

I found your post about the 2nd day after the earthquake. Thank you for posting! I appreciate your honesty in expressing emotions as well as your keeping us informed. We continue to pray for you and the people of Haiti.

judi said...

Troy and Tara, I have been following your blog ever since the Bentrotts stayed with you and they posted your link. What an amazing family and what extraordinary stories you have to tell. I include you in my prayers now. But you can't go on like this without some respite so I hope that plans are in the works for that as well.

Kristen {RAGE against the MINIVAN} said...

I am so glad you are taking the time to write this all out. Just reading your account of the earthquake brings my heartrate up a bit. I am so hoping those aftershocks go away.

Georg Willeit: SOS Children's Villages said...

You are doing a tremendous job. There are a lot of really seriously damaged children, but also plenty who just need a little. A thing I find most amazing here in Santos (just West of Port au Prince) is the speed with which some children recover. Some are deeply traumatized of course, but others just need a full stomach and they are back being children again
Georg (my blog)

A Stone Gatherer said...

Crying tears for you and Haiti this morning! What you all have suffered and continue to suffer break my heart. A verse keeps popping in my head about Haiti I hope you don't mind me sharing it: Isaiah 61: 3-4
"and provide for those who grieve in Haiti (I changed it from Zion, I hope the LORD doesn't and)— to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,the oil of gladness instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor. 4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations."
I lead a group of 5th grade girls at our church, and last night we talked about the strength of the people of Haiti. They are amazed at how some have survived buried for 14 days. I spoke to them of the strength of this people. They will rise from these ashes, and God WILL get the glory! Continue to preserve! Praying for strength!

sott said...

I'm glad that you said all of that. I sat here and cried reading it. Thank the Lord you are all safe and your kids are here. Thank you God! I'm asking that He sustains you and gives you all you need as you pour yourselves out over and over. Especially today I am asking you feel waves of His tenderness and that you see and feel His crazy love for you!! This is eternity work you are doing and so I ask for double annountings of His Spirit for you both. Love to all! I love how Casey says it "Big Jesus Love"!

Serdan said...

Cyberspace seems to have eaten the comment I thought I posted.
Just wondering if Quisqueya could send some docs and nurses your way to help cover you until the next team gets there.
And thank you so much for being there and for sharing your journey with us. I wish I could be there, but God hasn't opened that door yet so I wait for his perfect timing and pray for you and thank God for you every single day.
Heidi

jen said...

Thanks for sharing your story - while I am sure it is good for you to write, it is good for us to know how to pray!

HMK said...

Crying here as I read this... continuing to pray for you guys and for the people of Haiti. For the doctors and nurses admist you and for all the hurting men, women, and children of Haiti.. God be with all of you!!!

Jen said...

I have to say what a blessing your blog has been to me! My husband and i have been called into ministry. Reading your blog through everything going on down there has really touched me in many ways. I will continue to read your blog in the coming months.

We will be praying for you and your family. Thank you so much for keeping us up to date.

Carmen said...

crying and praying

Amy said...

Oh Tara...thank you so much for sharing your personal feelings on your day-to-day struggles. And your account of the day of the earthquake and the few days after brought me to tears. I continue to pray for strength for you, Troy and everyone else. There are so many that love you and are praying for you - I hope you feel it! Be strong as long as you can...Haiti needs you!

Praying for Paige as she comes home too...

Love you all!

~Amy in WI

ManyBlessings said...

We will not forget. We will continue to do what we can to help you guys.

Laura Lu said...

crying and praying for you! you and your family are so precious. we will not forget!

Andrea said...

I was sent the link to your blog last week by my cousin. I now check it several times a day for new updates. I fight back tears as I read each entry. I am thankful there are people like you who are there to help and love the hurting. I am thankful that we have a God who hears our cries. Praying with you and for you!

Andrea

e-Mom said...

Tara,

Oh you poor thing! How frightening. How terrible. You've lived through a NIGHTMARE...

Thanks for sharing the details of what happened in the early hours and days after the quake. I hear you.

I can't imagine this: "I looked out the front door to see the water in the pool flying about four feet into the air and across the driveway." Completely surreal. A telling image.

Your "Mama bear" concern for your kids is healthy. So glad your tribe is safe and cared for. That frees you to help Haiti Moms take care of their kids too.

Are you folks planning to take a "Sabbath" day off? You need it.

(((Love 'n Hugs)))

e-Mom :~D

MP said...

I can't even imagine and honestly I never want to know!
Praying God will give you renewed energy of body and mind! What a different level of faith God has lead you to...many of us will never even glimpse.
Blessings!

hopefuloffive said...

Thank you for your sharing, for your honesty, for your humbleness...and thank you for your servant heart. I love to read what you write and am always left feeling inspired.

jennywestmark said...

I've never wished for or wanted to be in the medical profession, but if I were, I would be there, without a doubt. The docs, nurses, staff, and all other helpers there are and will forever be heroes to me. I've already decided that as soon as my daughter is old enough, she's 2 now, we are going down there and volunteering at least one week a year at some small aid organization. I have a feeling that Haiti is going to be in a state of flux for many, many years to come. It breaks my heart over and over again to know that you're just not getting enough help and that people are still buried.

absolutegrace said...

Thank you for sharing your personal story. We've been following your blog and twitter to get a perspective outside of the visiting media. Thank you for sharing names, needs, and issues that we can pray for personally. May the Lord continue to give you strength, and unite you soon with your children.
In Him, Linda

Valerie said...

All I can say is WOW. As the days go and we don't hear about Haiti in the news too much anymore, I still make my nightly stop on your blog. God keeps reminding me to pray and I pray for you, your family and the people of Haiti. I pray for stength and wisdom for each of you. Thanks for being Jesus to these people. Our school is doing Hats for Haiti tomorrow. The kids can pay a $1 to wear a hat. Is small but it's something.

Braydon said...

Although it's not fully for us, thank you for sharing your experience, thoughts and feelings about the actual earthquake. And, as much as I can't really get it because I was not there, and have not been in Haiti doing the work you're doing, I get this: "...These parents don't get the option to put their kids on a flight..." and how you feel lucky and terrible at the same time. Feel relieved and angry at the same time.

We hear you.

Kit said...

Tara and Troy,
I've been reading since the day of the earthquake, as I found a link to you from another blog.
Thank you keeping this before us. We will not forget. We are praying daily for you, for the Haitian people, for the children, the mommies and daddies and for all the tireless workers who are helping.
Thank you for your writing and your willingness to share this. We need to hear it.
Bringing you before the Lord with tears,
Kit in Boston

Cindi Campbell said...

Praying and believing for Haiti. So glad your children are safe. Thank you for sharing.

Anonymous said...

thank you tara. this post made me cry. we have two children, one four and biracial, one six. they are adopted. I would die for them, truly. as good as blood that some say bonds. the ending was pure and powerful prose. Haiti is a POVERTY issue. a poverty issue. period. it's not a "third world" issue.

if one good thing came out of this horror..it's awareness across the world stage of Haiti.